Bic flick with every toke,
Creeping up the glass,
Empty spaces fill with smoke.
I try to forget what fills my head,
All these thoughts, better off dead.
I’m sick of the way these ashes make puns,
Tired of the ways words get caught in my lungs.
All my dreams burn out so fast,
Another year gone, 4 quarters won’t last.
I’ve been running so fast for so long,
I just want to sit here, relax,
Hey, don’t get me wrong,
I’m not giving up, I just need to chill out,
Quiet these thoughts, take a hit,
I write secret songs
Lyrics longing to be learned.
I sing in a voice of silence,
Only wanting to be heard.
What is it about being seen
That makes me want to run
I feel tiny trapped within
This mouse of an appearance,
With a whale sized heart inside.
You started a fire
You forgot to put out,
Leaving me waiting
Flaming hot with desire.
Imagine a glimpse, a flicker
Of the flame you leave burning.
Like a candle,
Wax dripping hot beads…
My lust melts to sweat,
I pace around like my brain’s lost,
Trying to find it, just killing time,
But at what cost?
Without my mind, without any aim,
I’m just getting careless,
But am I to blame?
Feeling crazy, or just stupid,
Hazy now or going faint,
Is this just another dream in lucid?
A lost soul, a silent art
Only sentenced to asylum…
Why do I need a brain,
When I have a good heart?
I turn to stone when you touch me,
Still, it’s not my truth,
I just don’t want you to see
That I’m soft and mushy…
How I’m always so blue,
That the night competes with me
Even more than you do.
I’m sorry if I seem heartless,
The way I run to hide,
Because I promise I’m not
I just feel as though I’ve died.
Some say it’s cold hearted,
I say that’s another lie.
I just have the type of heart
That is safer kept inside.
Hiding within the darkness,
Lurking lovingly in the shadows,
Afraid to come into open light,
Shame cursed itself, sliced silhouettes.
Dimming now, spying through windows,
Each shade another split of me.
Overcasts squirm from narrowed eyes,
Once again finding home in blacked out,
Eclipsed, grey matter.
I crave you,
All my wants have turned
I burn with a flame
That is hot
Only for you,
Because only you
Have the power
To spread the fire